I’m a little bit depressed about this. I’ve gone four whole weeks without eating chocolate, but I haven’t lost any weight. I’m not thinner or at least I don’t think I am. Of course, I can’t weigh myself, because, as we have discussed before, I can’t find a set of scales anywhere that can accommodate the wheelchair. However, my clothes don’t hang off me yet. When I look at my body it doesn’t seem any smaller. Now, I know that Rome wasn’t built in a day and that this may take a while, but I would expect some noticeable or tangible slimness to be happening. If I am to stay on course for this chocolate challenge I need some encouragement from my body. I’m not getting it.
There are only 11 months, 48 weeks or 336 days to go. I do miss chocolate, of course I miss it, it’s been my life. After Easter I had my house stripped bare of all chocolate or I thought I had. Yesterday, I found two bars of Lindt underneath the tea towels. It’s incredible how much chocolate I can hide and the odd places I put it in and promptly forget about it.
Replacing chocolate with something that will satisfy my sweet tooth is hard, harder than I thought. I waste a lot of time searching the Waitrose shopping aisles online to replace chocolate. I have found dried fruit, strawberries, pineapple chunks and cherries which are sweet and chewy like Opal fruits. Yes, in my life they are still Opal fruits! To those who don’t know they are Starbursts in disguise. I have found flapjacks without chocolate and they are quite good as oats are slow release, probably high in sugar but tasty nonetheless. Nuts are very healthy, but they get stuck in my teeth and they aren’t sweet. Marshmallows are good but they don’t last very long. I don’t like crisps very much and rice cakes are healthy but are like eating cardboard. I should know this as I have tried before to enjoy them but it’s a real struggle. I can’t replace one addiction with another so I have four days without wine now.
I’m also trying to restrict my consumption of carbohydrates and replace with protein wherever possible. This is supposed to encourage my body to burn fat by using my fat stores as my fuel but my body isn’t playing ball at the moment. It’s tricky at breakfast time because it’s traditionally a carbohydrate feast. You have bread, toast, croissants, muffins and cereals. Who wants to eat vegetables for breakfast? As for eggs which would be ideal but I hate, except in cakes, but it would be defeating the object a bit wouldn’t it?
I want to tell you that I am still focussed on this chocolate challenge and that I will not succumb to any kind of temptation. If I didn’t give in at Easter when chocolate was everywhere, I can carry on now until Christmas.